The Inner Machinations of Erwin Nah
Us.
Early in the morning,
Even before the sun has risen
They've come everyday for this meeting
To sit close and talk about no reason
Just to enjoy comfort of friends and good cheer
Just to be with one another
For they are a special group of four
Never to part they once swore.
Erwin Nah (24th June 2002)
Sonnet to a Lady
Ah! She's here!
A dear old friend; despite my years
Meeting up once more for dinner
A friend who allay all my fears
We're walking to that italian cafe
She, who a hearty laugh I can always share
We sit down, faces across, she places down her satchet
Her eyes seeming to always sparkle her unique flair
The creamy carbonara arrives after the calamari
Our laughter soft as the lamp-lighted atmosphere
Silent music plays for us a tune I carry
Subtle sexiness seeps through to me from her
As our conversation of mirth merrily continues,
So does the colours that paint her face after their hues.
-Erwin Nah
Nonsense! All nonsense! Tell me this is not so! Ale went back to school today! Of all days! The day when I was supposed to go study with Ann and YY and Zhong Ying in school but decided that it was too boring! She went back with Genevieve! Crap!!! I was missing her presence today and then all of a sudden she goes back?! God's too fair. This is too good of him. Oh man, thank you Lord amen.
Once again it's a super-hot day, and I return not victorious to my humble abode. I have bathed and I do not feel refreshed, I feel HOT. As in inferno burning, scalding skin...etc, you get the idea. Anyway, a big thank you to all who did not take part in my " I'm sorry Lim Hui" contest. You made all the difference. Swell, the bloody GP test was a crappy thing. I had to write a paper on the Demise of the Family. Shit. I actually managed to use my skills at crapping on blogs to good use there. Only time will tell whether it can pass though. Not all my crap is good crap, some of it is excellent, but that's not the point here.
Last night was spent watching "The Cider House Rules" and it's now officially one of my fave movies, alongside "The English Patient", "Gattaca", "About A Boy" and a few whose names I've forgotten. The movie's about this boy (yes, I know there's a pun...) who is raised in orphanage, goes out to see the world, falls in love, falls out of love, his father-figure dies and then he goes back to the orphanage to become the resident doctor there. Sounds simple enough? Well, simplicity always does its job well (despite the fact that I didn't think about this before whil doing my GP). Oh, funny thing happened in the bus 93, I think I spotted this couple from our school kissing at the back of the bus. Hoho...It was one of those close-your-eyes-and-linger moments. I think I saw them kissing, cause all I remember is that the guys back was facing me, I look and see the girl closing her eyes, and therefore the assumption is made (why does this word keep popping up in my life?). Ah, kissing. Wait, suddenly I feel disgusted with myself. Retch. After that I think they continued their reading. It was quite funny though, I spotted them, then immediately turned around shocked with a gaping mouth that threatened to give me lock-jaw. This morning was one of the best mornings ever, I once again felt that warm sense of belonging as I sat there with my friends in the morning. Whoa. I'm getting sentimental. I understand the 'mental" part of the word very well, but yeesh...emotions. I love my school! The next thing that occurred is one of the funniest, Endee came and gave me one of those postcards she was giving out today, and she (here we go again!) assumed that I was feeling very sad and lonely and that I was despairing from life and relationship. Well, I realised after reading the 7 habits book that I was not girlfriend-centred and therefore kinda balanced. The postcard was quite ridiculous in its contents, but I could see the effort there. Thank You Endee. Good luck with h(AL)im <----Hey!. On my way out of school I saw Mr. Wee talking to this girl in my GP class (F6) and I asked him whether 'Long-run' is included in the economics test, and I think she thought I was dolt, so she helpd him answer. I think she's got that cuddly, innocent-looking kinada face, like a pixie. Heh, she actually looks kinda mixed. Then on the way out I finally found out her name.
Nicole. I didn't bother introducing myself, the topic never arose. And bloody crap, this girl name Jeanette(?) said she forgot my name, after I gave her so many sweets *mock exasperation*, well, that's kinda cool, at least she's honest. I wouldn't like to forget someone's name and then tell them. Unless it's a pretty babe who looks like Natalie Portman and I have nothing else to start a conversation with her about. Anyway, I have no idea, I actually offered to take a bus 97 with Nicole to City Hall. I think I was feeling really free or something. That was crap, "Hey, maybe you'd like some company, I wouldn't mind accompanying you there." maybe I said that cause it sounded suave and winning. But wait, actually, judging from her friendly open face, I wouldn't have minded actually. I hate this "Erwin-meets-girl-and-decides-to-make-someone-else-happy-in-order-to-get-that-natural-high" syndrome. I seem to be suffering from it. I think I like girls again. I think I've never hated them.
Jerk. I love women! I love their smiles! I love the way they're individual face movements can characterise them into unique beings of happiness and joy! I think I'm a bloody nut who should be locked up in a cell with padded walls (no pictures of women please) and the key thrown away. No matter. I realised in the bathe that my dad's the crappiest man on earth. He loves trying to be my hero I think. He told me the other day that we'll go to Japan when he gets his job, why the hell's he forever getting-a-job? And whenever I call him in the office to tell him that someone called to ask for the bill or something similar to debt-retrieval, he has to pretent that he's paid and it's a mistake. He'll call me back just to tell me that he's scolded the guy. Like do I care whether you've scolded the electrical bill guy? It's got nothing to do with me! AAAaaaaaAAAAaaaaaaHHHHHhHHhHHHHhHHHHHhhhhhhHhhhh!!!!!!! Tomorrow's Economics and the day after that's my Mathematics AO, the test which I'm going to flunk. But everything else...hoho...I'm so dead. Someday we'll know whether the quote "No man is an island, he is just part of island chains." from the movie About A Boy helped Erwin in his GP, yeah.
I AM SORRY MISS LIM, I DID NOT THINK ABOUT YOU. I SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE THAT. IT WAS HASTY OF ME TO MAKE THAT ASSUMPTION. EVERYONE, ERWIN NAH DID A BAD THING TO HIS FRIEND, PLEASE PERSUADE HER TO FORGIVE HIM, BY GOING TO HER SITE AND SENDING HER THE MSG, "Erwin's a jerk for that, but please forgive him". THANK YOU SO MUCH. I'M REALLY VERY SORRY. YEAH. CRAP, I'M DEAD.
